chapter 117 : it's double true

i'm a blogging LOSER! no posting in over a month. lucky you! lots of things have been going on lately and will have to try and catch up sometime. lacking motivation once again, but we'll see what i start doing more of now.

been LOVING the SUNSHINE and i try to leave my house as often as possible. been trying to go to bed at the latest by 10:30. totally not tonight! been doing better at spending less overall. works best if i don't have possession of my little, blue friend, mr. Chase Visa. been feeling socially inept...what's new! been eating too much and working out WAY too little. been loving taking pictures and aching for an 85mm/1.8 lens. been trying to be more grateful, enjoying each moment and trying to YELL less. been LOVING my family and checking one more HUGE one off my list...we "adopted!" and since i am totally the type of friend that everyone has that is always complaining about $, but always spends anyway, i've been totally relishing in this :

without further ado...mr. clean finally agreed/gave into me/felt sorry that cosemtology school didn't work/is more worried about her than i am most of the time/loves me so much...

i present Miss

isn't she so stinking adorable???

cleaning up lots of this (ok, not relishing in this...) :

wasting time on (only some of the culprits) :
* the Bachelorette finale. poor Jason...my home town boy lost!
* playing zone games. got my free online Catan subscription again...oh no!
* finally reading my scriptures again and trying to do those "small" things of "great" importance.

overcoming :
* my almost entrance into cosmetology school. the direct inspiration that i can NEVER deny said, "NO! Now is not time. Maybe it will never be time. You NEED to have more faith."

i was so grateful! in that moment, i was LOVED and i knew it. although i really didn't deserve it, i received it and that was more than i could have asked for.
(Thank YOU for keeping your promises and always giving when i ask!)

more posts to come sometime in the future (distant or far).

peace out.

yours truly.

chapter 100 : drumroll please...

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* you can enter as many times as you wish
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disclaimer :
i will get your prize(s) to you soon after the winner is announced, but it might take me a while as i will have to make it and get it out and i'm a HUGE procrastinator.

advice to win :
good luck !

yours truly.

chapter 99 : the time has come

my baby is one tomorrow.
how blessed i am.

you are so
beautiful
sweet
happy
loving
mischievous
curious
funny
and amazing.

oh how we love our little Chubbly Bubbly!

chapter 85 : soaking it in

both girls are sleeping (woohoo!) and instead of doing all that i should around the house, i'm...
* vegging while taking my time to fold one of the 5 or 6 batches of laundry we did this past weekend
* soaking up the rays coming in through my window...yes sunshine in seattle
* relishing in how blessed i am this day
* loving my husband on his birthday
* getting "caught up" through google reader
* loving this moment

yours truly.

chapter 55 : would you like some cream with that?

look what showed up at my house a couple days after we got home from our Christmas trip? i love this thing! nothing makes me happier than special drinks and mr. clean got me just what the doctor ordered.
all you do is pour in your milk (we don't use water here), pour in your favorite instant hot chocolate mix (i prefer Stephen's Raspberry Chocolate), push the button to on and then wait for it to do it for you. it comes out at almost the perfect temperature and you can even have froth if you want too. now i just need some super cute mugs and i'm set for a cold winter's day or any day for that fact...i've had a cup a day to get me through the last week.
so if you ever need a great pick me up, pick one of these up or let me know and i'll bring it over and it will froth your worries away too.

chapter 54 : mine

at 8:08 pm 2 years ago

reality struck me

you were mine

your full, auburn hair

your deep dimples

you were mine

i still don't understand why

i'm so blessed that

you are mine

cautiously you watch

new situations

you are mine

ornery when tired

ornery when hungry

you are mine

always loving Daddy

needing your baby

you are mine

i can't imagine

life without you

you are mine

thank you for choosing

the right plan, for eternity

you are mine.

chapter 52 : i can almost see the light...

what are these you might ask? oh they're just a little something i like to call a pair of my pre-baby pants. can i get woot, woot from all the ladies who feel me on this issue? i decided one day to just try them and what do you know, they fit. i also am closer to my goal weight with only 15-20 more lbs. to still lose. yes they are a little tight, but i think it's one step in the right direction and is basically a miracle in and of itself...with all the chocolate i eat, this shouldn't be happening. plus i haven't worked out in a while so i can tell that my body needs it and my lower back is hurting again too, but hey let's not down play this for one second. let me bask in my moment. let me rejoice in my progress...now if i can just get the hips and tummy to cooperate too.
the last time i wore these pants was sometime in 2005 and if that's not a miracle then i don't know what is :)

chapter 44 : oh happy day

tonight for my big 25 celebration, mr. clean sort-of surprised me with a dinner out without the girls. he had some of our great friends come and spend the evening with them while we went and after too. for dinner, i learned i don't like crab that much, but in a effort to go where i wanted to go he went somewhere he didn't...the crab pot. even though we didn't go for long, it was nice to have it just be us. i even got cheesecake to go, but will have to save it for later as our friends surprised me with a super yummy chocolate ice cream cake. can't go wrong there...no sir! so a HUGE thank you to everyone who made this day special for me. from emails and cards to im's and phone calls to babysitting and treats, i couldn't ask for better (unless someone can talk my husband into a puppy next year ;) ) the biggest thanks goes out to my wonderful husband for trying to surprise meand do something i want plus he got me the nicest, small digital camera on the market today (pictures of it to come in the future). thanks honey!

well on this joyous occasion, how can i not be grateful for ice cream cakes and birthdays. yum, yum, yum!

chapter 38 : understanding my normalcy

today's thankful thought : earlier today, i went with one of my super great friends, the photographer behind this site and this blog, to check out a boutique in west seattle. beside getting lost several times and making it to the store about 10 minutes before close, i had so much fun getting out with her.
i am so grateful for people who i can share myself with and who i know understands me. it is such a blessing to have wonderful friends in my life now, in the past and hopefully more in the future who help me to know that i am normal (ok, well sort of ;) ). i am thankful that i can be myself, am accepted for it and that there are those who still want to spend time with me despite my flaws.

thank you to all of you who do this for me.